Living with two people that are merged into one.
You feel like you are losing one of the two.
Feeling them slip away from you.
You are grieving for someone who is still alive.
Every moment when they are normal, themselves;
you forget,
you forgive,
and you pretend.
You press down your feelings,
put them away,
and ignore them.
To save
a moment of
normality
just for a while.
To
keep
the
peace.
To
for
a moment.
But
it
Don't be fooled.
Always be prepared
to be let down,
to be disappointed,
to be second best,
to never be good enough,
to be unheard,
to be manipulated,
to be walked away from,
to be hearthbroken,
and to be grieving.
You are always trying to adapt,
adjusting everything,
making you lose a part of yourself.
But you can't do anything,
I am not needed.
